My Next 30 Years..

I am 29 years old. In May I will be entering my 30's and I absolutly refuse to spend my next 30 years being "Fat". Ten years ago, I was 130 lbs. I complained about my size although looking back I would give my big toe to be that size again. I have two children, one a toddler, the other is currently 8 months old. I look at them and know that right now they just see me as "mommy", but when will they look at me and realize that I'm bigger than all their other friends' mommies?
I live a great life. I have a good looking husband, two gorgeous children, a beautiful house and all my needs are basically met. I am just not happy when I look at myself in the mirror. I currently got on the scale yesterday and it flashed 179lbs. How did I get to this point? I'll tell you how, by not having the ability to shut my mouth and stop feeding it.

This is my journey. I know after the past 9 years of trying to shed weight that I can not do this alone. My goal is to do what I've set out to do for almost a decade and lose the weight. Both of my Grandfathers, my Grandmother and my Father all died of heart attacks. My uncle got diagnose a few years ago with diabetes (which runs ramped in my family) and I can not do this to my children.

My next 30 years..